Friday, March 4, 2011

Weight Loss Week 8

I haven’t really done anything this last two weeks; I guess I just got tired of working on my weight. It’s like a roller coaster, up and down, up and down. I know what I should be doing, but just don’t do it. Why do I do this? I start off really well and then at a center point I just give up. It’s too much work! I gained eight pounds, It’s so frustrated, I work so hard to lose 1 pound and in 1 week I can gain 4 pounds, I know I didn’t eat that much. I really just want to give up.

I was going to finally get into my 60’s and I blew it. The last time I was in my 60 was when Jade was born. My daughter Brook thinks that I sabotage myself, but why would I do that?

I do want to lose weight, but I don’t want to do the work! I don’t want to work out; I don’t want to count my points. I want to eat whatever and whenever I want.

Why do I want to lose weight?

I don’t want this roll on my stomach, I want to fit in to my size 8 pants, and I want to look nice. Why do I want this? Does it really matter? Whose attention do I want? Am I doing this for me? Is there a purpose?

I have a lot to think about! I have to make a decision, I know that I don’t want to gain weight, but slowing it creeps up. So, it still means that I have to watch what I eat anyways, even though it doesn’t seem like I’m eating vey much.

God help me, I’m depressed. I want to just give up! 8 pound…. really!
 Weight, 178

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1 comment:

AJW said...

dont get discouraged. spring is here it's beautiful outside...reason to go out. im with you sister, i too want to lose weight. stary strong. i love you.